Real me

It's not that easy to stand on my feet, like people also always said. Nothing comes easy.

Maybe that's why I will find as many as excuses that make me tell you that I can't.
I'm not the who can feel motivated by myself.

I always need a little or big goal to make me really wanna do something. And that's a little hard to trigger myself want to do something.

I think everything has changed when I chose to move from my childhood city. Leaving my comfort zone actually make me lost. I don't know who I really am. And I feel like an alien wherever I go.

Racist, ignorance, bullying, everything come in the same time while I can't hold it all. I just thought that everything on me is a fault and I should not be here.

In this almost 15 years, I think I still can't find who is the real me. Until my hobby is doing personality test to find what kind of person that I have inside.

It's just frightening to imagine that I show the real me. I'm not ready to see my truly me. Because I think I really hate the real me because no one love her. Then now I am trapped in someone that I wanna be, but she's still not the real me.